I don't have the words to express the sadness I feel. When I woke up this morning at 4.30 my first thoughts were Oh God - it's Christmas Eve :( A time of celebration is a trial for me this year. I will be glad to see the back of it but also sad to see the New Year heading my way because I will be leaving you behind in 2015 :( I love you My Mister. Always did. Always will.